(It probably means that I do not sleep well.)
equation.
Monday, 21 March 2022
Dream and dream
(It probably means that I do not sleep well.)
Sunday, 20 February 2022
继续恐惧
很久没有像最近这般恐惧,恐惧到明明很想面对但却情不自禁的在逃避退缩,然后我便开始讨厌如此懦弱的自己。每天无数次和自己对话要勇敢要努力,要坚决坚定坚毅!但却依然止步不前。对手机的依赖上瘾到底根源来自哪里,是真的生活让我感觉如此空虚还是因为自己没有底气。我的精气神在哪里?为什么我有了明确的目标很受启发很有斗志却还是好像毫无进展。如果我真的足够强大了,或许就不需要来这边自我打气了吧。
(现在这会,边码字,边心中隐隐作痛,到底是什么力量在阻碍我?)
Thursday, 10 February 2022
Feel the fear
It's been a long long time but I do feel I want somewhere to vent out or self-motivate.
To sum it up. I had a wonderful romantic crush/fling during my solo-travel in Spain. It could work out because of the long distance and the guy did not want to give it a further try. I felt quite deep in sorrow despite the very short time I spent with the guy. I tried my best to survive this impossible connection until I feel I cannot do it anymore.
He is not enough for me. The message is clear. It's a NO from him and from me. Here I am firm about this "NO" and I know I am strong and beautiful. If he does not like me (enough), it's his loss. I deserve so much better!
Yet, there is a little push that I am so determined to dream for a goal and fight hard for it. It's a more exciting sensation which I really cherish and feel grateful at the moment now.
Many butterflies in my stomach.
I can do it!
Tuesday, 31 October 2017
maybe I shall update a bit about last year first
Sunday, 22 May 2016
Sunday, 10 April 2016
Sorry I can't write
Sunday, 14 February 2016
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Saturday, 20 June 2015
GIVING
mixed messed up feelings and whatever
I know i will have so much to write.